robot.....

at this point dont know what to feel...hes gone...and he passed away in front of me...that last breath...as he laid there gasping for air like a fish outta water...as the blood started pouring out his mouth i knew his time was done...he made this face as if he didnt want to die but it was to late...i will never forget that image..i love u dad...y did u have to leave me , why did god have to take u away from me...his body little by little was getting colder...b4 he passed...its saddens me to see sumone whos been a good person, great father, i wanted him to see me walk across that stage..i wanted to physically hug him and tell him " i did it dad" ..i dont know how to cope...today i lit up...to get my mind off shit, but it just put me in this mood...i see myself just dozin off deep into thought...thinkin bout him...please forgive me for what ive done...is this how im punished...i lose my dad...as they put him in the body bag and carried him out...i busted out..tears after tears...i miss him...hes not the same man i saw couple months ago...more active , smiling, but now u rest in piece...there is so much shit goin thru my head...cant write no more....farewell pa...te amare siempre...